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++++ this country ain't getting me drunk

Ok, so finally i get to write what's been on my mind since yesterday, during which time i was intoxicated with a certain something, so, i am really glad i didn't forget.
I got to the conclusion that i haven't really been crazy drunk here. No way as often as i've been in the 2 weeks i spent home in May.
Plus the fact that i never threw up since i came here. Is the throwing up part the thing that makes clear the fact that i feel at home somewhere, so i feel comfortable with throwing up?
I sometimes feel like i need a night of party and booze to push the restart button on my head, and man , do i need one right now!
God knows, but maybe all this holding it in is not the right way to go.
And the second thing, as i am talking about some sort of intoxication, this country didn't use to get me high either. It's only recently that i get to relax into my head. Goddamn!